for the love of death

today is a sad day. i hope things go well but i have a feeling things will be awkward for me. i dnt cry, i can but normally i dnt. i cry for very specific reasons and when it comes to death its interesting. i can cry but i dnt. i feel sad and wish things had turned out different;y but no tears. does that make me a monster? i dnt think so. but ive been told that i dnt love enough that im a cold hearted bitch. but watevr i dnt care anymore let me b a cold hearted nightmare ppl might leave me alone. im excited tho MI is comming up and im on a hunt for bones. bones bones and more bones. i love them i even made 2 braclets out of a small hollowed out bone and then carved a hole in another one to make it like a charm. the only thing i have tho as a string is twine... not very nice i would prefer leather... ha more dead animal... lol but watevr ill make do with wat i have i hope chris likes it im sending one to him. i carved the japanese symbol for luck into it too... he needs all the luck he can get...