well this is kinda unplanned

so yea havent been on in a very long time...and lets just say theres too much to say about what happened....but i will highlight....went to camp it was fun got to play badminton and get huge bruses....i fell.... then went to my cousins b-day party and brought hom a brand new scar...i jumped for a marker...o nvm u wnt understand......then my mom my sisters my brother rin and i went to great wolf loge and that was fun we saw a hot emo lifeguard there we called him jess and followed him around...i got pics of him on rins phone! chris knows i love him to death and i want him so badly so im sry if this upsets u baby but u know that i cant have anyone else...chris didnt have as much fun and we fought alot...to the point i wanted to cry but we made up its was ok...then yesterday was chris' graduation party...i was very pissy...i wanted only chris and then i lightned up but brian was being a total poopie head....hes jelous of jess and justin (who could not keep their hands off each other they were worse than me and chris) and me and chris...i feel bad cuz everyone seems jelous of me and chris.....i guess i got lucky to have found someone like my teddy bear.....but any who thats kinda how it ended....july will be super crazy..most of the month i will be in MI or at EIU. im excited but i want my teddy bear with me ....it sucks that he cant go....... but yea my lunch is ready so im gonna go the pic is of jess!!

my rollercoaster of a life

so the week has been that of ups and downs ... i've been extremely happy and super upset..but wat can u do? wednesday and friday were the greatest but thrusday sucked...i got yelled at and made fun of...my mood just went south which is never good for anyone...but since most of u all ready know this i'll recap what happened yesterday. so my dad and brother went out to a job and mom decided that it would be fun to have a girls day out...it was hell! first we got out nails done...but i got a pedicure instead..i needed it...then my mom forced me to get my eyebrows waxed! it fucking hurt!!! i was ready to puych the lady in the face! but i didnt mutter a sound! i didnt sceam or cry...i just sat there white knuckled.....oh was i pissed!i never want to do that again...i'd rather have bushy eye brows then go thro that again!then we went to lunch and then chris pool which my mom yelled at me again cuz when i saw chris i ran up to him and jumped to wrap my legs round him..but my mom said that as long as an adult wasnt around we could do that...she knows that we do stuff when rents arent around...my dad on ther other hand wants me to stay an angel...which has no chance of happening now...anywho then we (as in my family) went to dinner and got some movies to watch...me and alora watched becomming jane which was really sad..but good...then me and chris role played untill midnight..so that was fun..but yea thats how it goes..tomorrow im starting badminton camp which will suck but watever....ttyl!

zip-pa-di-do-da...zip-pa-di-day....

my oh my wat a wonderfull day.....well im in the best mood ever nothing can bring me down! i had a best day ever yesterday. but i cant tell u why alotho Rin probably can guess what.but wat ever im happy! but it seems that when ever something good happens to me my family has turned into demons who wish to destroy my happiness. the moeped my rents bourght not 2 days ago was broken. the scooter fell over and the mirror cracked off. so my dad was livid. but things worked out its not that expenseve to fix but for some reason he would not let it go and he wouldnt drive me to work cuz i wasnt home earlier. he kept saying y werent u home earlier? its not my problem. i was like i have to go! hes such a moron. it pissed me off yesterday but i was still happy as hell. plus my mom let me and chris go out after work! which rocked! and today will be fun cuz i get to see Rin. whcih i havent seen in a while but thats cuz schools out. my mom wants me to get a job at the library. but i dnt mind it hink that will be fun. i'd get in trouble tho...seeing as how i love to read and im surrounded by books! but yea idk. so much stuff to do...so little summer. but yea thats was alli wanted to say was that im very happy and i love my bf to death.....i know hes the one im going to spend the rest of my life with...ttyl

school is done....the sumer of hell is going to start...

well today was the last day of school i didnt go tho. my mom was being super annal about it too. she nearly made me go cuz i didnt email me teachers about wat we were doing today. which was the dumbest thing i've ever heard of. we been done with finals and i was like noway! but to stay home i had to clean and do stuff for my mom. i want to do somthing with chris but i dnt know wat. and i dnt know if my rents will let me do anything. tonights my sisters b-day too which is just great i have to be nice to her even tho shes the biggest shit head alive. yesterday i was on the comp doing crap and she walks in an demans i get off so she can be on, when i told her to buzz off she sat there and tried to annoy me by screwing with the chair i was sittig on. till finally i was like fine go fucking do what u want! i get comphy watching tv when she walks into the room 5 min later and sits down. i was like arent u supposed to be on the comp? she was like im done. i nearly killed her! she kicked me off when i was doing something so she could do something for 5 mins! i was so pissed off! then my rents wont leave me or chris alone! "u dress like a freak, he cant go to MI, hes not part of the family, u need to be more resonsible, y are u so weird?..." its like leave me the fuck alone! im happy with who i am so bugg off! piss me off so fricken much. now not all of the recent news is bad me and chris have been great....Rin u can shut up....he loves me and i've never wanted anyone more in my entire life. so yea..im sry rin that ur single theres not much i can do for u....ttyl