WHAT THE FUCK?!?!

THIS TOTALLY BITES!!! I GOT FUCKING GROUNDED FOR A WEEK!!! A FUCKING WEEK!!! ALL CUZ MY 5 YEAR OLD SISTER LEFT HER SIHN GUARDS AT HOME WHEN SHE WAS GOING TO A SOCCER GAME!! SHE HAD THEM WITH HER BUT SHE FORGOT THEM AND I GET GROUNDED CUZ I WAS SUPPOSED TO GET HER READY! BUT SHE HAD THEM AND FORGOT THEM! SO I CANT GO TO CHRISTOPHER'S CONCERT WHICH I REALLY WANT TO GO TO CUZ I WONT GET TO SEE HIM VERY MUCH THIS WEEK..IM ALREADY STRESSED OUT ABOUT SECTIONALS AND I MISSED ALL MY CLASSES TO DAY SO NOW I HAVE MORE HOMEWORK PLUS TOMORROWS HOME WORK.....FFFFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKK!!!!........................i just.....want to see...my christopher....but no i cant even do that......im so sry baby..i really want to be there right now but i cant cuz my moms psycho....i love u and im so sry...im going to die here...i love u...ttyl

Wat an adventerous day!!!

so today i got to go to this really cool place for a feild trip. we went to a high ropes course!! it took us an hour to get there but it was worth it. then me and my group got to do the zip line first! it was really scarey getting up to the top but then i loved jumping down on the zip line!! it was so cool... then we did a rock climbing wall but i hate that so i didnt do it..then we went to the high ropes course and i climbed all over it was super fun and i had a great time tho i missed my teddy bear...i felt bad too...but then again i was driven insane cuz ryan would not leav eme alone and i wanted so badly to rip out his tounge and block his wind pipe with it....but wat ever i g2g ttyl!!

this post has no point...im serious...

i just want to use another icon so yea!!! and if u dont like it then fuck u!
~kitty
P.S. i cant stop laughing at this icon.....cuz L.O.T.R. rocks....(pun intended)

I would like to thank.....

so first off i have to say that i have the greatest boyfriend in the world. no other boy is like him and none of u can have him cuz hes mine! his b-day is comming up and i want to make this super special. im just not sure how..all i know is that he has to share his b-day with like 7 others which totally bites...his already threated like shit at home and now the one day that he has all to himself has to be shared with everyone eles...so baby what ever u want u'll get...on that day u and me are the only 2 people in the world and nothing will come btwn me and u...it will hopefully be ur best b-day ever...i love u baby....i want to spend the rest of my life with u...and i hope on thrusday that i reach ur hopes of me kicking ass...but dont expect too much. u never know how good we'll be ranked...im sry all this is happening around ur b-day and that ur kind of taking the back seat. but u know i love u and that it means so much to me that u'll be there. i hope u like ur surprise tomorrow....even if im not there...but come to practice my mom will be there to train me and sally...so it should be fun to watch...i hope i can get Rin there too...but she might be not as eager...but wat other life does she have??? *looks at Rin w/ critical eyes* not to be mean...well i g2g i cant wait to see u later!! i love u christopher...and theres nobody eles in the world who i want to love me more...ttyl

dandilions and scray geese....

well today was weird
i had to babysit all day..but it wsnt too bad. so first i wake up to my younger brother and sister saying they are going to church with our neighbors. i was like this is news to me. so i got them ready and sent them off... then i took a shower and got my homework done..then Rin came over!!! me and her took the kids to the park and we went crazy with dandilions!!! we decorated everything with them! there a chain link fence and a pole were not safe from our dandilions! then Rin decided to go up to a family of geese and nearly got eaten...twice... geese are scray when they have babies!!! this one charged at her and looked like the devil in feathers... then chris was flipping out cuz i didnt answer my phone so i had to put him in his place (just kidding) but we all better now...kinda...and Rin and me were talking and she knows im right, thats all im going to say... plus im going to talk to Brian...and u better be ready cuz hes going to talk to u...whether u like it..(wich i think u will :p) or not. i want u to be happy but u have to get over this weird fear of urs but for not u have me...which for this perticular problem is a blessing. well i g2g my audience and next time u see a family of pissy geese and dandilion frilled chain link fences u'll know marker fairie 1 and marker fairie 2 have been there...good night...

wats wrong w/ me?

hey to everyone...
i know most of u didnt read my other post yet but this is the day after and i must say i feel weird. i want my christopher here but im babysitting all day and he cant be over plus i was over at his house last night till 11:30 and my dad wont let me see him..i feel like the biggest shit head in the world cuz i was so tired last night i nearly fell over...i wanted to hold him and fall asleep in his arms but i couldnt seem to sleep at all..im sry baby for last night i was so tired that i fricken kept crying...(tired tears not wat ur thinking) i want u with me i want to be held by u...and not to say that i dont want erin over but shes not u...(sry rin) well i g2g ttyl k?

can u say confrence champs?

hey all my peeps!! (o wait i have no peeps....dam)
well to those of u who care *cough chris cough rin cough* we won confrence!! we smoked every dam team that played! me and sally took 1st in third doubles. and then i took 2nd in 5th singles. so over all it was a pretty good day. very productive. o and i had the best time last night with my wonderful bf friend, christopher, whos at work right now but will probably show up later cuz i want him too! i finally figured out how to get icons!!! i know 14 posts later and i just figure it out now..how stupid am i..anywho this icon is for u Rin i know u can relate...well we all can.. we've all been there. so dont worry and life goes on i know ur not ready to give up on him yet... and i know that in the deepest corner of ur heart that ur still wishing, screeming, and probably crying for this to work out...i've been there...maybe im wrong but idk. just know that im here for u when ever u need me and i can/will gladly beat the shit out of anyone who hurts u...u did great today at confrence. im sry that we were at different schools and i didnt get to see u play but im glad u did well... and for my christopher...baby u have no idea how much i love u and just wish we were together....my dad doesnt want u to come over tonight cuz he thinks i cant handle my self well...hes not an omalley so he has no idea wat im capable of...i love u baby and i miss u dearly. and i want u to know that no matter how many times i accidently fade out on u i never mean it..im just so empty headed...stupid stupid me..please dnt get mad at me or tease me about it cuz i cant seem to control it...it makes me feel like the biggest idiot sometimes and i feel terrible cuz i know it hurts u...but please forgive me...ur always there for me and i never want to leave ur side....reguardless of what ur or my parents say i will always love u and i want to stay with u for always..i know im a goof but u love me for me and theres no one i want more in this world...well i should go and convince me dad to let u come over...and rin i look foreward to our day tomorrow...u guys dont realize how much u mean to me...idk where i'd be w/out u....i 'll ttyl k?

p.s. just cuz the post is mushy doesnt mean i wont kill u if u make fun of me...im still a badass with a temper.....

life is just like a box of chocolates cuz when u think u have a really good flavor it turns out to be coconut...

well this is just great on a great day i feel like shit...i totally upset my best friend....i cant wear my fav shirt with strippy sleves...and im really tired and i have to go to school tomorrow..i really hate the fact that i hurt Erin...dam i never ment to..tho its really hard to hold bac ur love from ur soulmate in order not to upset ur best friend who just so happens to be in the middle of a bind. u know if stupid ryan hadnt messed things up rin and brian might have hit it off really well...way to go major dofuss welli g2g ttyl

i rock at badminton!

holy crap! me and my doubles partner are going to SECTIONALS!!!! AS JR.S!!!! holy crap..this totally rocks! we had to beat the doubles team that was below us! which was total bullshit cuz me and sally both played all season above them and we had to play them cuz they're senoirs and they need a chance to "shine" watever im just super syked (sp?) out. this is so cool. today was fun too cuz i got home at 10:30 ish and spent time with my bf, my sweetheart chris, and then had lunch w/ my mom and went to practice. kicked major ass...and then babysat for the neighbors which my sister took over just now so i could go to bed and do my hmwrk. but yea. and rin has a problem. she doesnt know wat she wants...ass-face or brian. i would say brian but she eally likes ass-face. the only thing really holding her bac is ryan...yea jerkface ryan.... so we'll have to work things out. but im sure she can handle it well i g2g my teddy bear's in distress and i need to go help him..im comming baby!!!
night!
~kitty

FUCK THE NONBELIEVERS!!!!

hello... its monday....on sunday i chopped my hair off. yep its all gone...no more..not there. and u know wat SCREW ALL U PEOPLE WHO DONT LIKE IT!!! i do and theres nothing u can do about it! its something new and fun and dangerous..(i dont know why its dangerous but it is!) plus its some much less work to do! which totally rocks..im going with RIn's opinion on this its my hair and nobody can dictate how i feel about it...excecpt maybe chris...but thats a different story. im independent and i am me so there! i g2g ttyl

MRC ROCKS!!!!!

HOLY CRAP!!! MCR ROCKS!!
we just went to the concert. well today is the day after..but last night fucking rocked!!!! first we had school then i went to half to practice (which was pointless) then me and christopher went to Rin's house to go to the concert. well ryan (who had been tweaking out about me getting there on time) was late. so we were on our way and we get there and we got in and right away we bought stuff. i got a shirt the said "MIKEY FUCKIN WAY" so i cant wear it in front of my parents. which really sucks cuz i love it. the we made our way to the front of the crowd and were pretty close to start off with. well soon this one band/ dude came on and he sucked! he was rapping at a rock concert!!! what an idiot. then the band Drive By came on and they were ok not great but better than the raper. then the real fun began and Billy Talent opened for MCR. i was flipping out on the inside i could not believe that i was going to see MCR in person!!! so we rocked out to Billy and then waited for the skeleton crew to perform. when they did THEY ROCKED!!! me Rin and Christopher pushed and shoved and nearly got trampeled by a whole bunch of mosh pits and the really big guys who started them. we go so close to the stage that we were three rows away from the bar!! i wanted to beat the shit out of the people who were there cuz i wanted a front row view of mikey and gerard. christopher was me body guard and didnt let me go the entire time. we were so packed in that i was being touched every where and i was so sweaty that my jeans stuck to my legs! it was so gross. but we had and awsome time. then this morning we went to a badminton toruney at DeKalb me and my partner, sally, took 4th place. so we kinda sucked. the team tho did really well we took 2nd place!! last year we took like 7th so we did really well...well im going to go and i'll blog later!

EWWW UR SICK!!!

yes im sick...i think i cought whatever my badminton coach had. which is nasty. cuz i cant breath or taste. i felt like shit this morning but im ok now. christopher kept trying to get me to go home but im stubborn as a mule and wouldnt go. i wanted to see him and play the game today! which we won. varsity crushed DeKalb 15-0 and i won my singles and doubles games. so we so far have only lost one meet which is totally awsome. we are first in confrence and very likly to win again this year. hopefully we'll send more down to state this year but u never know. im fine now but i feel a head ach comming on and im throat will kill tomorrow but im not worried cuz i'll still end up going to school and working. im no push over. tho i have to be careful cuz if i get really sick i cant miss the MCR concert on friday. then the PSAE is comming up and im freaking out over that even tho im going to COD and they dont really care about my scores. but i knew i could survive today cuz my wonderful boyfriend chris helped me feel better. i love him so much. well i g2g goodnight I.A. and Rin AND Chris!

yea im writing agian....haha...

so on to a lighter note. we had a meet today at WEST CHICAGO and we lost. most of the senoirs on varsity ditched. (its SR. ditch day) well coach wasnt too happy with that one and me and my partner sally go moved up to #1 doubles and i was # 2 singles. which freaked me out. i've never played that high before in my life. but i won!!! both games!!! me and sally split the doubles but i kicked ass in singles. my scores were 21-12, 21-9. which is super huge concerding i normally play #4 or 5. plus i was totally hyper today. and i meet leeland (i think thats how u spell it) he is this really tall kid at our school whos really nice and sweet. cheis knows him and i introduced my self to him which was cool. the rin to day was being all neh which nromally i am but todya she was moppey molly. and i was wondering if anything caused it. but rin walled her self up like a germaphobic thats just been told that 7 new virus' have just been discovered in his neighbor hood and they are all very deadly. but hopefully she'll trust me enough to tell me whats wrong. if there is anything i may be way off...who knows. well im tired and my throat hurts...my mom thinks i have mono. which is totally not true. cuz i havent done anything that would have me contract mono. ooo before i forget theres this really cool tee shirt of roy the toxic boy (my fav. Tim Burton character) and im going to get it no matter what it takes!! well good night to u all!!

the stressed out, wacked out, and utterly hopeless...

hello again my I.A. (Invisible Audience) i've been in a really tizzy lattly. u see my bf, my christopher only has a few months left before he gets to go to college. well as anyone old enough to know, knows that he's probably really stressed out him self and is freaking out over living on his onw for the first time. well thats y i hope he doesnt read this. cuz i;ve been having a hard time coping with it. i'm terrified about school shootings and shit like that for a while now. i know thats its very unlikly that it will happen but u never know. i dont want him to go either, i dont want to be left here alone. *smiles at the memory of him calling her cupcake* hes got a new nickname for me too. cupcake. its cuz of this teeshirt i got fro hot topic. it says muffins are just ugly cupcakes. and i got it cuz im a muffin. but he said im his cupcake and im terrified that he'll realize that im just a muffin and find a real cupcake while away at college. i know he loves me dearly but things happen. i dont want to let him go but i know i'll have to even if it is for a short while. christopher if ur reading this im sry if i worry u more. i dont mean to. i know i worry u enough cuz im always getting hurt some way or another. or im in trouble or theres drama im neck deep in. but dont worry about me. i'm still living (with a few scratches and scares to spare) im durable and i can pull through even with u not being here as much. tho i will admit it will be hard and i may loose my slef along the way but i know u'll be there to come get me back. ur my teddy bear. my love. my everything. an i will see u later....

The Day After.....

prom was AWSOME!!! the best prom i've ever been to (as of yet) me and chris had the time of our lives and i've never been so sweaty from dancing so much. last year we left early cuz it was awkward and not as fun cuz we didnt know anybody. but this year was a blast we danced for almost every song except like 3! we had friends there at our table who we danced with every now and then but mostly we were so engrossed in being with each other we went off to our own part of the dance floor. (which was super crowded) we took pics too which was fun...kinda cuz i hate pics..but o well...and then we went back to my place and i fell asleep in his arms before he had to go home....well today was fun...i slept in till 10:30 nobody was home untill 1:30. so i cleaned the bathrooms and watched Beowulf. then i went to chris' house till 10:00. i found out that my bf is a living miracle. he was born premature and with a whole bunch of health problems...i was so worried but im so glad i have him. hes my soul mate...i dont know wat i'd do with out him. i wil always remember this night as the night i knew my bf really loved me and was truly happy. that smile on his face and the look in his eyes were so breathtaking i knew i'd never want to see them not there any more. i want to keep him happy always, i want to be the one thats makes his eyes light up. i love him. i've had doubts before wondering if i was feeling the way i should but i do. there is nothing that can take him away from me. thats the boy im going to spend the rest of my life with and i dont care what the rest of u say..u dont understand...ur just my Invisible Audience who cant know how i feel and i dont think Rin does either. hopefully she will one day ...and stops mooning over ass-face and finds someones who really is worthy of her. (HINT HINT!!)but im happy and my christopher is the reason behind it. no one ever in a trillion years could ever make me feel the way he does. and i will love him till the day i die.

SAVE ME FROM PERGATORY!!!!!!!!

HOLY SHIT IM GOING CRAZY!!!! SOME PLEASE BREAK THIS SLIENCE!! i've been out of school since 10:15 and i havent done jack shit all fucking day!!!! my parents let my sisters friend come over and go out but i cant...i just was allowed to let Ryan over! i cant do anything with my christopher untill after work! and hes busy and cant talk to me at all....this is the one day i decide to not wear baggy clothes and look some what sexy and theres nobody here to be happy with that... plus my brother and sisiter are driving crazy and the only people i seem to be talking to are u Invisible Ones! and u wont even answer bac only Rin does that! shes probably out daydreaming about assface who was wearing really short shorts today which nearly made me vomit. and im still stuck here half crazy and lonely....well bye....