well i've been grounded for like 3 days just about...so i'll update every one on whats been going on in my very boring life. first off is that we had sectionals..or not i lied i was grounded and very upset cuz i was freaking out and i wanted to see chris..so then sectionals comes around and me and sally were not clicking like we used to for our rotation. but we figured it out. so we beat geneva and then lost to linclon way central..then beat DeKalb but then lost to Nequa Valley..so we were super close but lost. but we have next year.. our first doubles team went to state tho so everyone was happy. but my bf and my partner were getting mad at each other again.. sally doesnt like chris always comming to "steal" me away but she yells at chris when she could be nicer...u see my problem? so i told chris that he has to wait for me to come to him cuz i have to focus on the games and told sally she can be nicer. since the seasons over it really doesnt matter any more. but me and chris were not happy with each other for awhile but now we're ok. i've been really upset lately... idk y. ryans been really pissing me off and chris and me have had no ttime together..plus i havent seen rin in for ever...so im just depressed and i hope to god ryan doesnt find out cuz i will punch him in the face if he tries to be my "psychologist" which wil just piss me off even more. he drives me crazy so much so lately that i dont even want to pretend he exists..cuz it upsets me so much. idk maybe its everything thats going on right now and the fact that my bf is leaveing and i dont want to be hurt so im trying to protect my self by trying to break away from him when really thats wats hurting me more....im an escapist..if i feel threatend then i do wat ever i can to get out of it...but i love christopher..and i wont let him go..not now not ever. see look at that by way of free association i've found out what my problem is and how to fix it..ha i dont need ryan...well i dont think im grounded now but im still not sure...but yea i think thats it..not much eles has happened...so i'll write later bye!!
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Awww Kitty!!! I really wish I could have seen you more this week but I knew you were all stressed out over everything that's been going on so I figured it was best to leave you alone. Hopefully you got my note and it made you feel better somehow....?I dont know it probably didn't... Anyways I hope that you cheer up soon! We should hang out this weekend ok? ttyl!! Rin
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