so my weekend has been hell for a number of reasons
1. its been so crazy. friday/satday i hung out with rin and went to B&N then went to a party with christopher till midnight. sunday i was uplate from going to my uncles and writing a ton of my story (which isnt very good) and then monday going to a graduation party and then seeing indianna jones.
2. my parents think im a transsexual....and that im going to get a sex change.. crazy but true. and i've gotten yelled at for it too. see when i got my hair chopped off it was cute and short now its gotten shaggy and i love it but i look like a boy to the point where this guy at my uncle's asked my dad how old his son was...he was talking about me. and then my parents thought or still think im embarrssed of being a girl. which im not im totally fine with being female i just like looking and dressing like a guy. its way more comfortable. then they brought chris into the problem..my mom even said to me that if she were my boyfriend she'd be embarrsed of me. christopher loves me..he even likes it when i look like a boy. and i muyst say im a much cuter boy than a pretty girl. then they even talked about Rin..why cant u dress like her. why dont u put ribbons im ur hair? she looks cute. well im just tired of being made fun of for who i am. and i was really hurt when my parents asked when i was going to ask for a sex change. it just really hurt that they are treating me like this like there is something wrong with my androgny (sp?) im fine with who i am but i dont deserve to be treated like crap cuz i look like a boy. chris has told me that i should ignore them but i cant they're my family that has always ment a lot to me and now that im being different they hurt me. i nearly broke into tears but chris was there and he helped me threw this. im was confused too...cuz i know if i had been born a guy i would have been gay. and i wasnt sure who i was anymore. but now i know and im not changing for anyone but me. no one will tel me who i am or wat i can be. but i g2g i want to write my story ttyl...hopfully i'll get therw this in one piece.
2 comments:
I still can't believe that your parents would say something like that to you! It's so terribly rude and mean and woah. Forget what they said. As long as you're happy with who you are, it doesn't matter at all what other people think. Don't forget that ok?
Hey baby... Im sorry all this crap has beeg going on... I Love you, and I'll See you tommrow!!!
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