FUCK THE NONBELIEVERS!!!!

hello... its monday....on sunday i chopped my hair off. yep its all gone...no more..not there. and u know wat SCREW ALL U PEOPLE WHO DONT LIKE IT!!! i do and theres nothing u can do about it! its something new and fun and dangerous..(i dont know why its dangerous but it is!) plus its some much less work to do! which totally rocks..im going with RIn's opinion on this its my hair and nobody can dictate how i feel about it...excecpt maybe chris...but thats a different story. im independent and i am me so there! i g2g ttyl

MRC ROCKS!!!!!

HOLY CRAP!!! MCR ROCKS!!
we just went to the concert. well today is the day after..but last night fucking rocked!!!! first we had school then i went to half to practice (which was pointless) then me and christopher went to Rin's house to go to the concert. well ryan (who had been tweaking out about me getting there on time) was late. so we were on our way and we get there and we got in and right away we bought stuff. i got a shirt the said "MIKEY FUCKIN WAY" so i cant wear it in front of my parents. which really sucks cuz i love it. the we made our way to the front of the crowd and were pretty close to start off with. well soon this one band/ dude came on and he sucked! he was rapping at a rock concert!!! what an idiot. then the band Drive By came on and they were ok not great but better than the raper. then the real fun began and Billy Talent opened for MCR. i was flipping out on the inside i could not believe that i was going to see MCR in person!!! so we rocked out to Billy and then waited for the skeleton crew to perform. when they did THEY ROCKED!!! me Rin and Christopher pushed and shoved and nearly got trampeled by a whole bunch of mosh pits and the really big guys who started them. we go so close to the stage that we were three rows away from the bar!! i wanted to beat the shit out of the people who were there cuz i wanted a front row view of mikey and gerard. christopher was me body guard and didnt let me go the entire time. we were so packed in that i was being touched every where and i was so sweaty that my jeans stuck to my legs! it was so gross. but we had and awsome time. then this morning we went to a badminton toruney at DeKalb me and my partner, sally, took 4th place. so we kinda sucked. the team tho did really well we took 2nd place!! last year we took like 7th so we did really well...well im going to go and i'll blog later!

EWWW UR SICK!!!

yes im sick...i think i cought whatever my badminton coach had. which is nasty. cuz i cant breath or taste. i felt like shit this morning but im ok now. christopher kept trying to get me to go home but im stubborn as a mule and wouldnt go. i wanted to see him and play the game today! which we won. varsity crushed DeKalb 15-0 and i won my singles and doubles games. so we so far have only lost one meet which is totally awsome. we are first in confrence and very likly to win again this year. hopefully we'll send more down to state this year but u never know. im fine now but i feel a head ach comming on and im throat will kill tomorrow but im not worried cuz i'll still end up going to school and working. im no push over. tho i have to be careful cuz if i get really sick i cant miss the MCR concert on friday. then the PSAE is comming up and im freaking out over that even tho im going to COD and they dont really care about my scores. but i knew i could survive today cuz my wonderful boyfriend chris helped me feel better. i love him so much. well i g2g goodnight I.A. and Rin AND Chris!

yea im writing agian....haha...

so on to a lighter note. we had a meet today at WEST CHICAGO and we lost. most of the senoirs on varsity ditched. (its SR. ditch day) well coach wasnt too happy with that one and me and my partner sally go moved up to #1 doubles and i was # 2 singles. which freaked me out. i've never played that high before in my life. but i won!!! both games!!! me and sally split the doubles but i kicked ass in singles. my scores were 21-12, 21-9. which is super huge concerding i normally play #4 or 5. plus i was totally hyper today. and i meet leeland (i think thats how u spell it) he is this really tall kid at our school whos really nice and sweet. cheis knows him and i introduced my self to him which was cool. the rin to day was being all neh which nromally i am but todya she was moppey molly. and i was wondering if anything caused it. but rin walled her self up like a germaphobic thats just been told that 7 new virus' have just been discovered in his neighbor hood and they are all very deadly. but hopefully she'll trust me enough to tell me whats wrong. if there is anything i may be way off...who knows. well im tired and my throat hurts...my mom thinks i have mono. which is totally not true. cuz i havent done anything that would have me contract mono. ooo before i forget theres this really cool tee shirt of roy the toxic boy (my fav. Tim Burton character) and im going to get it no matter what it takes!! well good night to u all!!

the stressed out, wacked out, and utterly hopeless...

hello again my I.A. (Invisible Audience) i've been in a really tizzy lattly. u see my bf, my christopher only has a few months left before he gets to go to college. well as anyone old enough to know, knows that he's probably really stressed out him self and is freaking out over living on his onw for the first time. well thats y i hope he doesnt read this. cuz i;ve been having a hard time coping with it. i'm terrified about school shootings and shit like that for a while now. i know thats its very unlikly that it will happen but u never know. i dont want him to go either, i dont want to be left here alone. *smiles at the memory of him calling her cupcake* hes got a new nickname for me too. cupcake. its cuz of this teeshirt i got fro hot topic. it says muffins are just ugly cupcakes. and i got it cuz im a muffin. but he said im his cupcake and im terrified that he'll realize that im just a muffin and find a real cupcake while away at college. i know he loves me dearly but things happen. i dont want to let him go but i know i'll have to even if it is for a short while. christopher if ur reading this im sry if i worry u more. i dont mean to. i know i worry u enough cuz im always getting hurt some way or another. or im in trouble or theres drama im neck deep in. but dont worry about me. i'm still living (with a few scratches and scares to spare) im durable and i can pull through even with u not being here as much. tho i will admit it will be hard and i may loose my slef along the way but i know u'll be there to come get me back. ur my teddy bear. my love. my everything. an i will see u later....

The Day After.....

prom was AWSOME!!! the best prom i've ever been to (as of yet) me and chris had the time of our lives and i've never been so sweaty from dancing so much. last year we left early cuz it was awkward and not as fun cuz we didnt know anybody. but this year was a blast we danced for almost every song except like 3! we had friends there at our table who we danced with every now and then but mostly we were so engrossed in being with each other we went off to our own part of the dance floor. (which was super crowded) we took pics too which was fun...kinda cuz i hate pics..but o well...and then we went back to my place and i fell asleep in his arms before he had to go home....well today was fun...i slept in till 10:30 nobody was home untill 1:30. so i cleaned the bathrooms and watched Beowulf. then i went to chris' house till 10:00. i found out that my bf is a living miracle. he was born premature and with a whole bunch of health problems...i was so worried but im so glad i have him. hes my soul mate...i dont know wat i'd do with out him. i wil always remember this night as the night i knew my bf really loved me and was truly happy. that smile on his face and the look in his eyes were so breathtaking i knew i'd never want to see them not there any more. i want to keep him happy always, i want to be the one thats makes his eyes light up. i love him. i've had doubts before wondering if i was feeling the way i should but i do. there is nothing that can take him away from me. thats the boy im going to spend the rest of my life with and i dont care what the rest of u say..u dont understand...ur just my Invisible Audience who cant know how i feel and i dont think Rin does either. hopefully she will one day ...and stops mooning over ass-face and finds someones who really is worthy of her. (HINT HINT!!)but im happy and my christopher is the reason behind it. no one ever in a trillion years could ever make me feel the way he does. and i will love him till the day i die.

SAVE ME FROM PERGATORY!!!!!!!!

HOLY SHIT IM GOING CRAZY!!!! SOME PLEASE BREAK THIS SLIENCE!! i've been out of school since 10:15 and i havent done jack shit all fucking day!!!! my parents let my sisters friend come over and go out but i cant...i just was allowed to let Ryan over! i cant do anything with my christopher untill after work! and hes busy and cant talk to me at all....this is the one day i decide to not wear baggy clothes and look some what sexy and theres nobody here to be happy with that... plus my brother and sisiter are driving crazy and the only people i seem to be talking to are u Invisible Ones! and u wont even answer bac only Rin does that! shes probably out daydreaming about assface who was wearing really short shorts today which nearly made me vomit. and im still stuck here half crazy and lonely....well bye....