the FUCKED UP, whacked out, and overly dramatic

the best thing about today..... hasnt happened yet. i hate holidays i really do. ive been yelled at left and right for alot of crap. first the house isnt clean then it hasnt been cleaned right then its i want ur phone... oh it gets better! then its lets bash kelli's driving skills! all friking day!!!!!! i was told i have zero sensitivity and im a bitch.... chris was being the biggest drama queen and needs to shut up but hes ok now which is good cuz i cnt take that whiny shit. i love him to death, like mad, how ever u want to say it. im just so fucking pissed at every one. they wnt leave me alone!!! dad wnt shut up mom is a bear... not a panda bear more like a rabid grizzly thats PMSing. why is everything so stupid!!!! honestly!? im not happy!!! arg i got a job working for jewel which is cool but i have to get work pants and i havent had time!!! im driving ppl around evry where and its kelli do this and kelli do that! kelli did u do the thing i told u to do 2 minutes ago when u were doing that other thing i told u to do? bitch bitch bitch bitch thats all they evr do. and get a load of this bull shit! my mom calls today and is like im getting a mini computer for ur grad gift... ill share it with u... but u can only do school stuff on it. WAT THE FUCK!!!!!?!?!?! most kids get a laptop to do what they want. i get a laptop to share with my mom for school! and i dnt even get to pick the dam thing out!!! ill get my own fucking computer and use it for what ever the fuck i want!!!! this is so retarted!!! im just done... yet i get called a bitch and as non-feeling as a rat! i want out of this fucking house!!!!!!!! NOW!!!!

the isolated, insane, and enraged

well its now thursday and im so sore... but i got a new book the other day which is fun and i got to bike ride... yay me. but the freaking insane thing is that everyone has gone fucking nuts!!! ryan is bac in town and txted me the other day i nearly had a heart attack its weird hanging out with him. then i txted erin and she was like oh we r friends now.... WAT!?!?!?!?! erins always backed me up and has found him awkward.... the whole world is going to shit. my bf is gone i want to b left alone and i know once ppl start asking me to hang out more and i keep giving excuses they read me the roit act and im not interested. i dnt like ppl i want to b alone unless ur christopher go away. my dad needs to be quiet agr my family is too big and too loud ive got to go ttyl

guess whos bac!!!!

yea i know im so lame but watevr im a busy girl! so here are some major updates im now 18!! and have graduated highschool i might even be getting a job at jewel which is cool cuz i need the cash. im still dating my christopher tho hes gone for 2 months and im heart broken i love the stupid moron.... but we can handle it and its good for him hes a great horn player and hes so sweet then my best friend erin and our friend brian just started dating which is so cute but annoying at the same time. i know when couples start going out that nothing matters but the other person and u get to be cute and sappy and make other ppl want to gag but when ur on the opposite side its like ewww ok get a room! im happy for her and him. as for badminton well i was part of the top doubles team and # 2 on varsity!!! i was also team captian which is cool. but i did not make it to state cuz my partner decided to fucking choke at sectionals!!!!! i was so heart broken i wanted state bad and she didnt seem to care! i could have killed her! i was so mad but atleast i took home a tiger award and she didnt. idk im just upset it was my year! my chance to get my pic on the wall of fame.... but we took confrence for a third year in a row which is great. we beat oswego east nice and soundly. so hahaha! ive been lonely lately its no ones fault but idk i guess i dnt want to do much cuz my chris is gone. not much else has happened. ive been working out every day or trying to i want to look sexy when chris comes home but wat if im still the gross old me and hes the hottie when we see eachother again? i hate my body... oh who am i kidding i hate everything about me. i want to make him happy and im not sure that i do... im so sore ive been biking to school and bac then playing badminton for 3:30 to 5:30 then biking home im super sore.... but what if it doesnt help? im so gross how can chris even stand to kiss me? im not sure wat to do anymore and im nervous about this job... life is so crazy what happend to it just being summer and theres nothing to do? well i g2g ttyl guys

i havnt been here in like years!

well its now 2009 yay? idk watever it just happens, im still with christopher its alomost been 2 years! which is so crazy weird but i love him! Rin is still my best friend ever and my concert buddy! we r going to one in april to see 3oh3, rocket to the moon, hit the lights, family force 5, and a few others it will awsome!! college is soon and highschool is almost over!! which rocks. im so ready to go to state for badminton this year. im going to kick ass badminton is a rough sport i dnt care wat u say. if u bad talk my sport ill beat the shit out of u with a raquet! i lost my job at vita bella...ooops... but i hated it anyway... an i have a new pet. hes a rat i named him Rex! hes so cute hes black with a white belly! and hes all mine! im turning 18 very soon! which is cool but scary! i g2g now! ttyl

SO FUCKING PISSED AND BORED!!!!

yea right now not in the best of moods in tired, cranky, fucking starving, bored out of my god damed mind and to fucking make shit worse my head is pounding! my body is sore from going to work with my mom and working out for six dam hours!!! my head has been pounding all day my dad stepped on my hard work! my art project my pride and joy! and he said sorry but he was laughing like it was fine! no fucking way i spend all my time on that dam thing and its not even done and he steps on it!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!?????? then expects me to be all fine abt it. fuck no. then i did my chores fell asleep and went to work and i havent eaten since 1:30 im so hungry i could cry but i cnt bring my self to eat everything makes me feel like getting sick. NO IM NOT PREGNANT for all u asswholes who are thinking that right now. trust me im sure. i just want to rip some ones head off right now. and so b it if i yell at some one i love i dont giv a shit! so fuck off!!!!

its been a while...

its been a very long time since i've blogged and things have been like a seesaw....i've got a job now working at vita bella pizza the suckish thing is that my manager mike changed the scheduel and now im fucked and have to work saturdays...but my dads gonna talk to him.... im also getting a new phone...the rumor!!! im so excited the shitty thing is that it wnt be here till sunday!! i and i was told we'd get it friday...im not a happy camper....then theres my lovely boyfriend chris who at the moment is on very thin ice.....i love that dam boy to death but sometimes he can be a real idiot...im just really stressed right now and im seriously tired of shit....and the fact that all these people im so how linked too are getting pregnant....first my boyfriend's retarted cousin at that oh so wonderfully stupid age of 16 decide with his 14 year old girlfriend that it would be a good idea to have a baby together that way their love would never die.....this is why kids should not watch disney movies.....any who the parents found out and now they;re going to see if she really is pregnant. what a lovely story eh? just warms the heart hearing that shit....next one one the list is an old friend of mine who has never been well smart... she is 17 maybe 18 her boyfriend is 44.... i know what ur thinking....eww.... but the guy is worth over 3 million dollars. so maybe not a bad trade off.... but to make mattes worse she thinks shes pregnant....HURRAY FOR THE WORLD FULL OF COMPLETE FUCKING MORONS!!! oi... i swear...if i could stay 17 for the rest of my life im not sure what i'd do.....hell i dont want a life like shit alwas having to pay bills but im sure as hell not gonna stay under the thumb of my rents...no sir i want to live on my own but live my way....which i hear that if u do ur looked upon like shit on the bottom of ur shoe.....but watever i'm just done.....

Dnt look now.... Freshman!!!

omg y must freshman b so stupid? my mom hates it when i say this but i dnt care they r..i was that stupid once but still it gets really annoying....my classes r ok but one of them im the only SR. with the stupid freshies....so yea not a happy camper...but i've no one not a soul...its hard im used to having all my friends but now theres not a person who likes me (except mayb RIn and shes only in one class) i look cute to day tho and Bear picked me up so yea...if ur confused Bear is another name for my christopher....so yea....me and him had some rough patches but nothing too bad..i thought he was cheating on me for a while but i was proved wrong....which for once i was glad to be proven wrong...this is where i draw the line...if anyone goes after my Bear and i will kill u...try me if u dnt think i will....but now that im in one school and hes in another i worry...im sure he does too...but theres no issuse there...im not a whore...!! sry inside joke anywho that about it me and ryan r going to do something to day so yea i love u Bear dnt forget that!!
ttyl
~Kitty